1:15 PM
Monday, March 3, 2008
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♥Mamamia, here i go again...
Okay, so I'm not having a grrrr-eat day, as my frosted flakes promised.
I feel just about as awful as sticking your hand on a lit burner. Maybe even more than that.
I don't know what it is... my mind is just being so bad to me. It's telling me that I'm fat and disgusting and repulsive and that nobody loves me.
Now, I know that's not true...
But my mind doesn't seem to.
I don't know how to combat these feelings anymore. Maybe I should just let them overcome me.
Charlie is better than anybody in the world at making me feel better about myself.
He's warm and furry and knows just what to do to make me smile.
Laying in my lap sleeping now...
I love him.
And I know that I love Ben too...
I really really do.
Now if only my mind would believe it,
Jess
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"The dragonfly symbolizes going past self-created illusions that limit our growing and changing. Dragonflies are a symbol of the sense of self that comes with maturity.